❝ If you focus on what you've left behind, you'll never be able to see what lies ahead. ❞
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Thursday, April 1, 2010
放了爱。 你会明白有种拥有， 叫作放手。。Feeling damn stressed now even though there are no exams/coursework/homework etc. I'm sick and tired of this life. I feel very lonely. I've so much to say but no idea where to start. Just very.... depressing. I don't have anything to look forward to except Audition and going with friends. Totally no life! The outside world is tearing me apart. Only some of my friends and my families supported me and stand by me all the way. Sometimes I really feel like crying and fucking complained every sorrows but I always swallow down the big lump in my throat and be a strong boy infront of everyone else, including my parents. Because I know I'm gonna be a big boy now. I seldom go out & rotting myself at home, every single day... I don't know what I want. I don't know why am I being so paranoid and depressing. I miss my slacking days. I miss happy days. I hate the outside world. It's like I went home everyday just to lick my wounds and I have to get hurt the next following day. I'm really trying to be optimistic towards my life and everything. But can someone teach me how to stay optimistic always and be a happy-go-lucky person? I promised there will not be anymore emosxzs post after this. Everything will goes to my only journal. I told you I'm an independent boy but I think I lied. Because actually I'm still a child at heart who gets hurt easily by the outside world. You'll teach me how to be strong, right? |
Yours Faithfully
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