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Monday, February 1, 2010
Well, just finished doing my blogskin. Guess I`d private my blog for now on. As everybody know what`s going on now. I think it`s the best that I keep it private ba. :)Anyway, I had a good chat with Jasper darling just now. He`s really someone that I can go to when I need a listening ear. I`m not trying to say those that were there for me before aren`t good listening ears. Is just that I don`t know why/how come I`d just open up my feelings to him without hesitating. (Whatever it`s spells) And yeah. Recently, I have alot of things that kept stressing me constantly. Really have no idea of what am I suppose to do next/now. I must admit that one of the problem that I`m stressing about is NS Enlistment. I seriously very scared/afriad to go into NS. If you ask me why, I only can tell you that I don`t wanna be alone. But that`s not the main reason. It`s because I`m afriad.. What if I can`t cope everything that I have to do in there? What if I go in and never come out one day? There`s alot of "what if" on my mind each and everytime when I think about it. Don`t expect me to not think about it. I seriously can`t. By seeing the days are drawing closer to the Registration date, I really very scared. Though I`ve already applied ITE course, but I might not get into it too. And what if I don`t get into any course/school, I guess that`s the only way I have go... Sigh. I don`t wanna go in NS leh! :( Another thing that is bothering me was money. Yeah. Money. I find that Giordano is getting from bad to worse. I don`t know why, but seriously, it`s really making me feel like quitting. (Which I don`t want) 1st is because of my stupid incharge. I seriously don`t know how long more can I stand her. Though she didn`t give me a big push on work, but I still can feel that presure that she`s giving. -.- Sales is what she care about. Hitting the monthly target is a must for every retail shops, I know. But I don`t even get a single cent even if our shop hit target anot. Why should I help? Right? 2nd is because of my in-grown toe nail. She`s such a bitch infront of my Area Manager. She can actually act like she don`t know that I`m wearing slippers for work, from the day she ws transfered over to our shop. Made me got scolded like for nothing. -.- What the fuck lor. There`s still more to it. But I`m lazy to list out everything. So much things that I have to stress over with. I find that life is meaningless to me now. All I do everyday is work, play, eat, drink. And thinking about my dream to have a shop of my own seems impossible. Sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! Why am I not as rich as the richest man in the world? :( If I am, I wouldn`t have think and stress so much about. ;cry! Last but not listed. Happy Birthday Denise! ;duh |
Yours Faithfully
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